2010 is coming in 2 days time. my 2009 was.. empty.

mr. landlord, please be nice. good karma will be with you.

i miss so many of you. seriously.

my body currently aged 29. wtf? a herbalife auntie weighed me with a weighing machine that tells you how much fats you have, how much weight you need to lose/gain.

i wish life could be simpler in 2010.

Today is such a memorable day that i die-die must blog it out, unlike so many other things that i had wanted to blog but keep putting it on hold hence forgotten.

Well.. I met nice people, cheerful people, real people and i'm finally slightly awake. :P

I feel i have more motivation to move on despite so many let downs, unsatisfactory in working life, too much of self-hatred, too many disappointments, too many unreachable dreams and the list goes on. All these branch out from a root cause, which until today, i'm not sure whether it was a destiny, as it was a terribly helpless incident, yet it was perceived so differently. Of course, nobody is in your shoes to know how exact it feels, and you could only bite your lips and move your ass on, to no where and you cried.

I met lovely clients today. hehe

They had really made up my day. I never thought clients can be that nice, to that extend. Perhaps they are good in PR, but oh you know, i really feel the sincerity. Fantastic! (jed oh jed)

Hmm.. it was an outing cum experiencing trip today. i met very very nice couple, from oil & gas industry and the husband is so kind to share so many things. If i didn't dose off in the car, i would have asked more questions. I'm not sure revealing name from new friends is a good thing, but it somehow lead to lots of unexpected experience. fun though :P

I was smiling all the way when 'smileeee' was instructed, albeit not to me. :P and smiling does make someone happier! i just realised the power!

The other day when mom send me my pasport, she jotted an interesting advise on the evelope. I'm so proud of this woman, she's so knowledgeable. The moment i read it, i have tears rolling in my eyes. My heart melted and i feel sorry for my mom that i had made her worried so much.
The egotism in oat is so strong that she hardly agree entirely with the 'power-foo' man, thus create lotsa noise to make her stand firm. Good or bad? I think it's sensible. I've seen woman who can harmonise the man like he's the world, and i feel very disappointed. (like 关我事:P)

Happy Father's Day, I love you papa & mummy.

I miss home, do you believe? :P

Philips goes to work

I had a good laugh on Philips goes to work.
He's so bubbly and funny!

I need Ginkgo.
I hate hainan ren. (particular one)
I need to use my camera.
I need another round of island getaway. Can i go by myself?
I want to go somewhere. Somewhere.
I need to lose weight as much as 5000g.
I wonder why my life is so wretched.
I hate talking to snobbish people.

Arrrrrrgh!!

Perspective

A pessimist: Life is hard..

An optimist: Life is full of challenges!

Congratulations, ZhangXiao

You look so gorgeous, you look so xing-fu...
Glad that you are tying the knot in July...
Congratulations! I'm excited! but not able to make it.. :P
Sincere thanks for your invitation..
Wishing you a happy marriage and glad that you have found the special someone :)
Hugs darling!

Thrash it

On Tuesday..

Went to work out after work. I have been very emo recently and even worse these few days. Sigh, i should get out of the place, the position. I simply couldn't take more of that.

Had a good chat with Cherii and we conforted each other. lol
Had a good laugh at Wannie's 38-ness.
Had a good work out at gym.
Had a good laugh at Jed's facebook updates.

It's not that bad after all.

Shot of the day. Passed by the old palace. Sultan's birthday is around the corner and the state garmen setting up illumination everywhere.

I like the illuminated ladder. :D

Box of Love

Finally, i've sent my box of love off to Kyoto. after much procrastination

It's a 2008 Christmas gift + 2009 birthday gift (February 20th) to my beloved host sister, Asaji. (Yah, i'm very cheapskate. i know i know :P) Despite the normal Esprit towel, i make an effort *ahem* to do name embroidery on the towel ok. :P

Well, Japanese are very into giving and receiving gift thingy. I'm still receiving gift at least once a year from Asaji ever since i home-stayed in her house. It's very heart warming to see her effort translating Japanese to English when she wrote me birthday cards, letters, christmas cards, postcards and email. I'm still as happy as a little girl when i get parcels and cards from Asaji. Receiving gifts and surprises are the moments I don't realise how big my mouth is, can smile from ear to ear. I've seen a recorded video before, it's gross. Blame the braces which make my jaw line so wide.

That's how lovely she is. And the gifts are always sweet and meaningful and canggih. LOL. I used to get this mineral water chiller, which is pretty cool. She sent it with the mineral bottle itself, but without the water inside. :P As she knows i love Muji's pretty much, so i got ti-ti-tok-tok of stuff from Muji. hehe

Compare to the gift i sent her, shame on me. I usually get things that are less than 1000g, to avoid the bomb of postage. I am again very cheapskate. :P I think Poslaju or PosMalaysia is overcharging us. When i see the amount of money she paid for a large parcel, it's just very cheap (for them) and the delivery lead time is 5-6 days!

The first few years upon knowing her, she sent me lots of snacks, cakes which don't look edible(but they are), chocolates and crackers as she remember how surprise(sua-ku) i was to see the varieties of junk food they have, and they are too cute to be consumed, therefore i think she couldn't forget myl 16 year old fat girl look, as she still buy me snacks and potato chips in takoyaki flavour 2 years back and also a lovely Swarovski Nail Files which i never use.

I think Japanese do manicure consistently. Sis was saying her host sister did her superb manicure at 23,000 Yen. She wrote for her somemore in case she doesnt understand. She do it on monthly basis.. Sis added that the host sister still can do household chores with her manicure on! Like washing dish. haha. (oh japanese use dish washer machine, just need to arrange the dirty plates into the machine, no wonder)

Curi-ed her pic

Here's what i got from Asaji last year. Lunch box, unbrella, facial oil blotter, chop stick, chop stick case, multi color pen, strawberry wafer... I was snapping around and have fun looking at these little thing and kc gave a 'Errrrrrrr' look.

I can simply feel contented with little things. Quote from David "Got 'sum' jao very happy la" :D

Caught a cold

I was driving on a busy road yesterday. Suddenly, i had an impulse to sneeze. It was so irresistable that i was trying so hard to forcefully keep my eyes open to curb the sneeze. Worse was, my hands were on the steering wheel maneuvering and my car was already at the middle of the road crossing a T-junction and the few second was so critical that either i accelerate with closing eyes and sneeze or sneeze and accelerate, which both could lead to disaster. :P Eventually, i die-die sneeze with closing eyes for 3 consecutive seconds and luckily i'm still here, blogging.

I google up and got to know that it is impossible to keep you eyes open when you sneeze. :P

Oh yeah, I'm back! TADAIMA! :D

Life is pretty tough and i am now learning to savour the sweet and the bitter part of it. As i dread and fumble around trying out new things, i met a lot of good souls. Though i got much covet over their fortune and triumph, however it got me thinking. pretty much. I have been hiding and running from the reality, sometimes questioned who should i be. how to be one good soul. Sigh, it was an identity crisis thingy.

It was hard, when you love your love ones more than you, you hardly hear yourself, your need. A moment later, you started to blame them, for stealing yourself and heck you forgot it was you who was willing to make it happen. When you're finally sober, you know you should put on your shoes, and get set for a new life.

Spending time with family is nevertheless, the greatest thing in life.

I missed my friends so much you know! :D